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| Hey, I dunno what I can say I have just been doing what I always do and I know that the people who hang around me know what I have been thinking about but then again most of them don't understand completely. I really don't have much to talk about but I am about to redo my entire site and possibly get a new one because I want to just start over this time. Nothing to extreme just have had too much shit so I am going to make my own new one that no one knows about then show it to everyone. Oh well I am tired and just got off work so I think that I am about to go to bed so I'll talk to you all later.....
I'm Me Nothing Special Just Me Thomas | | |
| Hey I haven't been on in a few days and I guess that no one else has either because I haven't gotten any comments... Oh well I guess that life is full of mysteries and I have to say that they are pissing me off because the more I try to move through life they fuck me up hard core. I have been thinking about this whole relationship thing and I am almost tried of trying to make things work but I have to say that everything that I do is worth my time because I have worked too hard for this not to work this time around. And no strings attached sucks because I want to know how people feel but it never seems. I have put myself on the line to let my heart be broken so many times that I think that people keep taking advantage of it and I know that in the end it will all be good because then I will have become strong enough to get through this thing they call love and then no one will be able to take that from me. I know that no one really reads all of tis mess because if you did then you would know that I hurt all the time because I have to work at everything I do or else I wouldn't be me.... I also have to say that I want things to work out for the best and when I thinkn that they are then I always get a swift kick of reality and I remember that I have to work for every second that I have, but on a happier note I am finally getting to work and get paid for it and I know that everything that I do there is being put to good use because I know that the people I help always leave with a smile because I always make them enjoy that little time that I get to work with them. I am getting to hangout with my friends and I have been enjoying it more and more because I am normally at work and I only get to spend a little bit of time with them each week because I work my ass off and never have anytime off so I am getting more respect out of it than normal. Oh well I am going now so I'll talk to you all later.....
Da Donka Duck Thomas
And everyone need to listen to this song that is up there...... | | |
| Hey I guess that everything went great today I went to the Browning Library in Waco so I was pretty happy that I didn't have to go to school again... I am now on the way to getting some more shit for my truck.(Right On) I am just working my ass off all around so I think that it is about time for things to be right in at least part of my life. I have always been someone who won't give up on things that I want therefore I usually get what I think is important to me. I have had somethings that have backfired on me a time or two but I take those as more of a challenge so I go at them that much harder. In other words I am going to end up either broken by the end of this year or I am going to be glorious in my pursuit for happiness. But on the other hand I have nothing to do so I am just going to blab on about how work is fucking awesome. I have worked two days and I absolutley love my job. I work at Home Depot and I make damn good money and get great hours all the time. Now that I have another job I can do the things that I have always wanted to do..... I haven't figured out what those are but I am sure I can think of a few. Oh well I think that I am going to let you the reader have a break and I am not going to go on anymore so I will talk to you people that still read this so I'm out.
Da Donka Duck Thomas | | |
| Hey, Well things have changed a little bit again... I have to say that I have gone through a bunch of bull shit and I hope that anyone that still reads all this understands that I am a whole lot different than I was like two to three months ago. I have done some things that I am regretful for and I am sorry to those who this aplies to and I have done some things that I am glad that I have gone through with. I now really think that I understand who I am better now after being the person that I shouldn't have been for a few months and now I think that I am the person that I want to be which makes me happier then I have ever been in my entire life with a few bumps here and there but I am rather excited that I get to go to college in a few months and I get to be away from all this shit that has made me who I am and I am going to love being in a small town again and being with all of my older friends. I am going to have a blast I know it. Oh well I am going to go to sleep because I worked a 12 hour shift tonight and I am tired...
Da Donka Duck Thomas | | |
| Well things didn't go the way they should as usual.... I have to say that because the one person that I would do anything for has just let me know that the feelings weren't mutual.... I know that some of you that read this are like awe not you deserve it... And for now I thinkn so but I am not going to let on that I am sad because I can't it'll make me be insecure about myself and I am not. I can say that I am as broken up as I have ever been and that I am not going to let this thing bring me to a stop just because of a (problem). I am just going to be myself and go on as usual. I will have to get used to not being able to hold, kiss or even just be with that person but is that such a bad thing???? I am now going to be that guy that used to be yours but you knew how that was before and I guess you are going to be happier this way but for now I hope thats what you get... satisfaction. That is what you wanted right.. Oh well I guess that is about it but I'll talk to ya'll later.
Tall Dark and Not So Handsome Thomas | | |
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